I wish he'd just leave me the hell alone, he's ruining my mind, my life, everything.

I have a tendency to become negative but mostly I am positive but see myself as realistic. I hate being around someone that's negative, you literally become and turn into them. That's what's been happening with me, it's as if I am mimicking how this person is.  I see myself losing interest in things I once loved, becoming negative, negative towards people and at the world.  My head is filled with worry and so many different things that I just want to shut down. I hate being the positive one for them.  I wish that they'd at least try harder to be positive.  I have my own battles in my own mind and life and hurdles to overcome and it just gets to be a lot and exhausting.  And I get tired of thinking that way, real fast. I just had to have somewhere to vent. I'm glad I have a blog on here.

I had my first root canal done today. Eek. Or ick!  There's a dead tooth in my mouth, that's a little disturbing even for me and my poor tooth!  I'm not even sure how it got that way, I think it has been that way for some time and just slowly got worse.  I haven't been getting regular dental checkups as I should. I go back next month to have it crowned.  I hope it doesn't start to cause me tons of pain.  I had four shots and was very very numb. It wore off mostly, I think, I just hope this doesn't start to hurt bad.  Anyone out there ever had a root canal done? What was your experience like?

I had raw okay not completely raw but undercooked meat earlier.  It's been hours and hours so far and I haven't gotten sick.  After I realized I was eating it I did the worst thing possible and made myself throw up. It was a futile attempt to get rid of what I shouldn't have ate but nothing came up anyway so I just quit while I was head.  Now my throat is sore and I've got a rash all over my face and neck.  I'm not sure why I am writing this, I haven't even been to bed yet. It's almost 5am in my part of the world.  I recently got a book by Dean Koontz, only it's the fourth in a series so I'm not sure how 1-3 goes. I've never read anything by him at all. I don't usually read bestsellers. I haven't written anything on here in a while.  I feel so tired.  I should probably go to bed soon.  I stay up all of the time a lot until 2am until 3am  and right now until 5am. Goodnight mindsay land

Nothing seems to work on here anymore lol I can't upload photos, I can't have a profile picture. And now I've been reduced to typing in an html code which I haven't done in ages. No matter at least it works? I hope, anyway.

I am not happy with the wing at all. Maybe next time!